Just don't know

React or respond,
it's a matter of choice
Whether keep you or destroy
I can no longer decide

I have grown stronger
Only to fear
Losing my feelings
To all what I dear

Walking on a string
Motivated by pain and applause
I can control myself
But I want to fall

It's just so hard to understand
In open field with all possibilities
If I am attracted to the accolades
Or pain of the few chosen realities

I think I am something
Not defined by you
I have my feelings
A distinction of the view

But even now and then
You are in front of me
For my ground choices
My reaction for you and thei

May be it's just not me
Not horoscope or sign define me
It's just my apprehension of the world
With you in front of me.

I wish I know what it is
What's so special in you
What washes away my pride
My sanity I don't know
Will I ever find love
Or just wait for your pity soul

Dil ki baat

Aaj bhi khayal karte hain to
Fir se Bhanwar mein paate hain
Nikal to aaye Hain par
Fir se fasna chahte Hain
Ese bhi hum Kya ghanta ukhad rahe Hain
Kam se Kam Teri yaad mein
jeene ka to ehsaas Kar rahe Hain

Na na ye mat samajhna
ki tumse Kuch umeed rakhte Hain
Na hum aawaz sunna chahte Hain
Aur na hi Nazar Bhar dekhna chahte Hain
Ab hum akele hi tadap ke khush Hain
Iss tadap ka ehsaas tumhe karwaye
Ye bhi ab gawara nhi
Na hi tumhe samjhane ki aas Hai
Tumhe dukhi dekhna to kya
ab Khush dekhke bhi guzara nhi

I am so foolish!

I do not understand
what I have been doing wrong
should I take a stand
Or mesmerize others song

Why I am so foolish
In comprehending this social construct
How much to give
How much to resist from self-destruct

Should I change my nature
And solve this complex equation
Or listen to my heart
And don't give fucks to the situation

I just don't know
How to convey, I am the best for you
I can manage, adjust a lot, but
Its not that I will die without you

I just couldn't grow enough
To draw that line between you and I
How much to show I care for you
How much to hide to protect my "I"

I also feel pity that
You will lose me with your level of thoughts
It's not your fault, nor you can control
May be there is some "you"
Who can resonate with my clocks.

last effort

I am so stupid,
I don't understand you
Neither I pondered
Or cared to define you

I have not explored
The hypothetical questions
Never asked myself
Nor visualized the situation

The people who know me
Never cared to ask
Since it's important to you
I am going to do the task

I might have said something
I don't know it myself
I can't even kill an ant
How I explain myself

My feelings are honest
Care to look inside me
Don't judge me by my words
Try to understand me

Just for the time being
Consider to ignore it
Once you know me
You won't ask me.

I believe in god
The events that bound us
I believe in the feelings
That I think define us

I can handle anything
Or the worst things that pain me
But this situation is mere an illusion
Try to look beyond it.

Just ask yourself
Contemplate over your feelings
Should such events
Define our tellings.

It's a request, an apology
A sincere demand for all time of ours
Don't let it go
For mere doubts of yours

Bas Ehsaas!

Tumhari har subah bas khilti rahe
Har Shaam mehekti rahe,
Bas ye muskan bani rahe
chahe kitne hi din badalte rahe

Na hi koi Gam tumhe choo paye
Na to Koi pareshani, koi aabhas karaye
Chameli ki khushbu ki tarah
Khushi ki mehek tum mein Basi rahe

Zindagi ke iss raaste mein
Koi kaanta chubh bhi Jaye
Kabhi thokar lag bhi jaye
To bas ye yaad rakhna
pyar ka marham esa denge
Iss raaste ko foolo se saja denge

Ab ye sawal na karna ki
Esa kya Hai tujhme
Iss ehsaas ko
Iss ehsaas ko
Shabdo mein badalne ki Samajh
kahan Hai mujhme

Beautiful morning!

Let the sun to shine bright,
let the birds sing for you
Let's welcome the beautiful day ahead
a very good morning to you

You have the serenity
of an early morning sun
You have the kindness
Like the tranquility of a pond

Your glamour can beat
sun reflection through window.
The smile on your face
Is like a gateway to meadow

Your waving hair is that magic
Even wind,
Even wind dances to it's music
Earth has to rotate everyday
Due to gravity that's so tragic
Even it wants to cherish you
In this beautiful morning magic

Samajhdar ho Gaya Hai tu!

Ab hum bade ho Gaye Hain
Uth Kar khade ho Gaye Hain
Doosro ko peeche chod
aage badhna seekh Gaye Hain
Ab hum bade ho Gaye Hain

Ab Dil se jyada
dimaag ki sunne lage Hain
Pyari si muskan par bhi
Shak karne lage Hain
Chote se bacche ko bhi
Paiso se lubhane lage Hain
Uphaar ki kimat prem se jyada maan Gaye Hain
Ab hum hoshiyar ho Gaye hain

Mehetvapoorna vishyo pe
charcha karne lage Hain
Aur chai sutte mein
Unhi vishyo ko udane lage hain
Kuch banne ke jazbe ko, kabiliyat ko
Upyogita se maapne lag pade hain
Ab hum kamyaab ho chale hain

Anubhav ke bhoj ko
Sanjoke rakhe hue hain
Doosro ke Gam se jyada
apni Khushi ki parwah Karne lage Hain
Pariwar mein hasne khelne se jyada
Vyatigat samay ko jaruri jaanne lage hain
Iss duniya mein jeene ki jagah
Isse ladne ki taiyaari Karne lag gaye hain
Ab hum samajhdar ho gaye hain