Live now!

When the tides are high
sail forward
when the mountains are high
climb higher

go through the crazy winds
even if you are not sober
live the present, do good now
because there is no pull-over

You have taken your time
to realize this forever
you know you have to have it now
there is no time for do-over

life can end without bloom
embrace the change not the procedure
cherish the moment, fight the evil
for the life is now or never.

pyaar dosti hai!

na kabhi ye socha tha
ki iss daur mein aayenge
saare purane gamo ko bhool
ek nayi muskan payenge

apne pe hi shak tha
jo socha kya wo payenge
ye kise pata tha
ye kise pata tha
uski pyaari baaton se
khud pe bharosa kar payenge

saari khwahishey chod kar
hum aage badh chale the
par ab uski chahat mein
hum naye sapne sajayenge

khush hu ye soch kar
khush hu ye soch kar
zindagi ki thokre khaayi hamne
ki unhe hum jaankar
jald se pehchan jayenge

Waiting!

Oh man such a struggle
Just wait all the time
Only to see me fumble
"Online" and "typing"
Every time Everytime
Waiting for an answer

Why I have to try
Why can't it be mutual
I said I like you
Why I have to prove myself
Why it can't be casual

Do I have so much time
Is it a competition
There is a difference
Between consistency and obsession
Don't wait for the first to pass
Don't indulge in caution

Just don't know

React or respond,
it's a matter of choice
Whether keep you or destroy
I can no longer decide

I have grown stronger
Only to fear
Losing my feelings
To all what I dear

Walking on a string
Motivated by pain and applause
I can control myself
But I want to fall

It's just so hard to understand
In open field with all possibilities
If I am attracted to the accolades
Or pain of the few chosen realities

I think I am something
Not defined by you
I have my feelings
A distinction of the view

But even now and then
You are in front of me
For my ground choices
My reaction for you and thei

May be it's just not me
Not horoscope or sign define me
It's just my apprehension of the world
With you in front of me.

I wish I know what it is
What's so special in you
What washes away my pride
My sanity I don't know
Will I ever find love
Or just wait for your pity soul

Dil ki baat

Aaj bhi khayal karte hain to
Fir se Bhanwar mein paate hain
Nikal to aaye Hain par
Fir se fasna chahte Hain
Ese bhi hum Kya ghanta ukhad rahe Hain
Kam se Kam Teri yaad mein
jeene ka to ehsaas Kar rahe Hain

Na na ye mat samajhna
ki tumse Kuch umeed rakhte Hain
Na hum aawaz sunna chahte Hain
Aur na hi Nazar Bhar dekhna chahte Hain
Ab hum akele hi tadap ke khush Hain
Iss tadap ka ehsaas tumhe karwaye
Ye bhi ab gawara nhi
Na hi tumhe samjhane ki aas Hai
Tumhe dukhi dekhna to kya
ab Khush dekhke bhi guzara nhi

I am so foolish!

I do not understand
what I have been doing wrong
should I take a stand
Or mesmerize others song

Why I am so foolish
In comprehending this social construct
How much to give
How much to resist from self-destruct

Should I change my nature
And solve this complex equation
Or listen to my heart
And don't give fucks to the situation

I just don't know
How to convey, I am the best for you
I can manage, adjust a lot, but
Its not that I will die without you

I just couldn't grow enough
To draw that line between you and I
How much to show I care for you
How much to hide to protect my "I"

I also feel pity that
You will lose me with your level of thoughts
It's not your fault, nor you can control
May be there is some "you"
Who can resonate with my clocks.

last effort

I am so stupid,
I don't understand you
Neither I pondered
Or cared to define you

I have not explored
The hypothetical questions
Never asked myself
Nor visualized the situation

The people who know me
Never cared to ask
Since it's important to you
I am going to do the task

I might have said something
I don't know it myself
I can't even kill an ant
How I explain myself

My feelings are honest
Care to look inside me
Don't judge me by my words
Try to understand me

Just for the time being
Consider to ignore it
Once you know me
You won't ask me.

I believe in god
The events that bound us
I believe in the feelings
That I think define us

I can handle anything
Or the worst things that pain me
But this situation is mere an illusion
Try to look beyond it.

Just ask yourself
Contemplate over your feelings
Should such events
Define our tellings.

It's a request, an apology
A sincere demand for all time of ours
Don't let it go
For mere doubts of yours