Reflection 2025

A reflection on the year, it
is always so fast.
Have to think hard at all th events,
so many things to cherish even without a beer

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My kid grew to 3, he is so tall and free
I am already in nostalgia, ready to relive all three

Supporting, guiding, correcting while keeping him safe,
saying, "Its alright", not for him but for my sake.

Laughing, running, dancing and watching him play,
make sure he eat one more bite, watching his mother pray.

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Chosing a life of balance, without caving in
redirect life, accepting change, while fighting for self-being

Finding guidance, implementing suggestions, while ignoring unanswered calls
moving forward on my own path, with uncertainity outside and within.

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What's next, i dont know, there is still so much recovery to do
but it wont stop my forward steps, however small they are through

There is not guarantee for any moment what decision i will take,
but it will true to my heart, that's all i can say.

Mamuli si jindagi

 Mamuli si jindagi ho

Fir bhi khushiyan Kam nahi hain

Chahe mehnat kitni bhi sari ho

Safaltayein Kam nhi hain

Chahe Himalaya pe nhi hain

Par kisi choti par to hain

Vishwa vijeta nahi hain

Par hamesha haare nhi hain

Pareshan bhi hue, hatash bhi hue

Badnaam bhi hue, nakaam bhi hue

Par abhi yaha khade, saans bhar Rahe hain

Har kamjori ko apna kar badh Rahe hain

Itni thokre khayi hain, girne ka darr nhi hai

Bas girane wale dosto ko khoye ja Rahe hain

Iss Zindagi ke safar mein kahi to pahuch hi jayenge

Kisi choti pe ya apno mein rahat payenge.

Let's wait and watch

 Apne kuch asulo ko thame ham chale

uss duur gunjati aawaz ko thukrate hum chale

bechani mein khoye hue samay guzarta gaya

ab bas roshni ki kiran ke sahare tairte hum chale

mere asool meri pehchan hain, 

mera kawach, meri kahani hai

inhi ke saare, issi se bandhe

main apni gali mein bhaga ja raha hu

ye kise pata soch badalte der nhi lagti,

kab ye gali bhoolbhaliya ban jaye

kab doosri gali mein 

naye asoolo mein doob jayein.

Tumhare andar ki aawaz bahut kuch kehti hai

har mod pe, har mauke pe, apni raaye diye jati hai

usse nhi pata apni chanchalta ka parinaam

uska bas mann hai, kuch bhi, kuch badlaav

ab jahan bhi hain, jaise bhi hain..

apne assulo ko, apne mann ko manaye aage badhna hai

abhi to rukne ka mann nhi, abhi aur dekhna hai...

kya karna hai!!!

Everyday!

 Everyday,

A new opportunity to explore

To create something new

To think, invent and start afresh from core

Everyday,

A new opportunity to be consistent

To solidify the commitment

Remind, refine and rework on basics too

Everyday,

A new opportunity to be you

To forgive and love

To rewind, rejoice and relax

to find YOU in you

AverageLife

I can't take it anymore
or may be i can
But do i have to wait
for any particular instance

I can't change the past
neither can take in the present
it affects my mood here & there
should i get used to
this new regular average decent.

Even the new normal might not be promising
It will have its downs
something or the other will  be dimishing
but does it imply
i stick to my thorough calculations
let it happen as it is
as it has also moments of affections.

i guess that is what compromise looks like
trading love for occassional dislike
I guess things will continue as they are
Lets keep testing the patience
may be its not too bad on life canvas.

aankho-dekhi

ye sab ek-samaan kyu nhi hai
ye has kyu raha hai
wo bol kyu raha hai
jab mera samay aata hai to
wo ro kyu raha hai?

maine to bas ye chaha hai
aaj ke din bas ye khush rahe
bas naachte rahein, bolte rahein
khelte rahein, kuch karte rahein
aaj mera din hai... to ye
naraz kyu hai, pareshan kyu hai
bimaar kyu hai, deewar kyu hai
to aaj ye insaan kyu hai

mere iss dil ko koi to samjhe
main ek dulha hu, dulhan hu,
baccha hu, saccha hu,
mehmaan hu, khaas hu
buddha hu, bimaar hu
insaano ke beech mein
main bhi to ek insaan hu

sab kuch aasaan kyu nhi
wo samajhte kyu nhi
meri bhavnao ko, vicharo ko
wo badalte kyu nhi
apni soch ko, kapdo ko
apne rishto ko, vyavahar ko
kyu insaano ki tarah rehte hain
apne aap ko meri soch mein
dhaalte kyu nhi...

Let's be Nice!

Lets be soft
respect the parents most
Lets be humble
when your child feet stumble

Its wonderful to fly
reach the heights
climb the mountains
never stop and always try

Your heights might be different
my lows are not too simple
my struggles has no such tides
that you could even wonder.

the stories which I understand
may not even cross your mind
the universe that surrounds me
might not even fit your kind.

So just lets be kind
for all the sorrow, sadness, madness
never ending tension, concussion, emotion
all the rumbling, stumbling, fumbling, mumbling
the universal creation.

just an understanding, a realization
walking in their shoes
and make this generalization
It may be all yourself
in some other actualization

Its not that difficult
just avoid the ignorant attitude
be sensitive to this multitude
we are not all the same
but may be I were you or you were me
in some time frame.

So, lets be NICE!

Being Social!

why do i care
why does it matter
why does it ever bother
i just never ever cater.

Be out, be loud
as much as possible
open your mouth
Be global, be social
as long as
its not your funeral.

make sure to talk
be ready to connect
your life is meaningless
untill this web intersects
It does not matter
how strong the Edge is
There just must be a spanning tree
with minimum interjects

ohh, My apologies,
i didn't ask how you are doin.
least i care the sorrows you carry
if u are going to die or marryin
even if your face, your nature i disgust
i'll follow the protocol must
you are a human i know
i must respect, even if with dupe jest

Ek tu hai...

kya hai kyo hai... bas hai
ek tu hi hai....

iss baarish mein, iss baraf mein
iss chubhti jalti garmi mein bhi
ek tu hi hai...

iss doori mein, inn nazdikiyon mein
iss bheed mein aur tanhai mein bhi
ek tu hi hai...

meri baaton mein, khyalo mein
whatsapp ke status mein
duo ke focus mein
photos ke sync mein, fb ke link mein
ek tu hi hai...

ab do hokar bhi ek hain,
kyunki na koi tere jaisa hai... mere liye..
ek tu hi hai...

YOURS

Never mind it's all good
It doesn't matter now,
may be it should
So crazy I was
wandering in the woods
I would never have worried,
knowing there you stood.

You are crazy and wild
Mumble like a child
I love it when you smile
Resting on my side

You are not the only one
Who acts as you like
You made me love me more
As though I am perfect kind

I thought life would be different
It will be a crazy ride
I don't say it enough
but with you
Everything seems alright

I love it when you smile
With the gaze and only thoughts
You for sure belongs to me
I am ALL YOURS ONLY YOURS

Its You

Let's handle the good
That is happening to me
Let's handle the awesomeness
That is you
For such craziness
I am ready to fall for you
For a delightful accident
That is you

Let me enjoy the beauty
That resides inside you
Let me alter myself
That doesn't listen to you
For you are the new hope
That has overwhelmed me
For you are the new journey,
A wonderful experience
That is you

Let me cherish the moment
Warmth of your hugs
Let me realize the serenity
That softens my heart
For it's you, that can calm me down
Control my breath
For it's empathy, love, resonance
I did not know I was looking for
That is you.

Live now!

When the tides are high
sail forward
when the mountains are high
climb higher

go through the crazy winds
even if you are not sober
live the present, do good now
because there is no pull-over

You have taken your time
to realize this forever
you know you have to have it now
there is no time for do-over

life can end without bloom
embrace the change not the procedure
cherish the moment, fight the evil
for the life is now or never.

pyaar dosti hai!

na kabhi ye socha tha
ki iss daur mein aayenge
saare purane gamo ko bhool
ek nayi muskan payenge

apne pe hi shak tha
jo socha kya wo payenge
ye kise pata tha
ye kise pata tha
uski pyaari baaton se
khud pe bharosa kar payenge

saari khwahishey chod kar
hum aage badh chale the
par ab uski chahat mein
hum naye sapne sajayenge

khush hu ye soch kar
khush hu ye soch kar
zindagi ki thokre khaayi hamne
ki unhe hum jaankar
jald se pehchan jayenge

Waiting!

Oh man such a struggle
Just wait all the time
Only to see me fumble
"Online" and "typing"
Every time Everytime
Waiting for an answer

Why I have to try
Why can't it be mutual
I said I like you
Why I have to prove myself
Why it can't be casual

Do I have so much time
Is it a competition
There is a difference
Between consistency and obsession
Don't wait for the first to pass
Don't indulge in caution

Just don't know

React or respond,
it's a matter of choice
Whether keep you or destroy
I can no longer decide

I have grown stronger
Only to fear
Losing my feelings
To all what I dear

Walking on a string
Motivated by pain and applause
I can control myself
But I want to fall

It's just so hard to understand
In open field with all possibilities
If I am attracted to the accolades
Or pain of the few chosen realities

I think I am something
Not defined by you
I have my feelings
A distinction of the view

But even now and then
You are in front of me
For my ground choices
My reaction for you and thei

May be it's just not me
Not horoscope or sign define me
It's just my apprehension of the world
With you in front of me.

I wish I know what it is
What's so special in you
What washes away my pride
My sanity I don't know
Will I ever find love
Or just wait for your pity soul

Dil ki baat

Aaj bhi khayal karte hain to
Fir se Bhanwar mein paate hain
Nikal to aaye Hain par
Fir se fasna chahte Hain
Ese bhi hum Kya ghanta ukhad rahe Hain
Kam se Kam Teri yaad mein
jeene ka to ehsaas Kar rahe Hain

Na na ye mat samajhna
ki tumse Kuch umeed rakhte Hain
Na hum aawaz sunna chahte Hain
Aur na hi Nazar Bhar dekhna chahte Hain
Ab hum akele hi tadap ke khush Hain
Iss tadap ka ehsaas tumhe karwaye
Ye bhi ab gawara nhi
Na hi tumhe samjhane ki aas Hai
Tumhe dukhi dekhna to kya
ab Khush dekhke bhi guzara nhi

I am so foolish!

I do not understand
what I have been doing wrong
should I take a stand
Or mesmerize others song

Why I am so foolish
In comprehending this social construct
How much to give
How much to resist from self-destruct

Should I change my nature
And solve this complex equation
Or listen to my heart
And don't give fucks to the situation

I just don't know
How to convey, I am the best for you
I can manage, adjust a lot, but
Its not that I will die without you

I just couldn't grow enough
To draw that line between you and I
How much to show I care for you
How much to hide to protect my "I"

I also feel pity that
You will lose me with your level of thoughts
It's not your fault, nor you can control
May be there is some "you"
Who can resonate with my clocks.

last effort

I am so stupid,
I don't understand you
Neither I pondered
Or cared to define you

I have not explored
The hypothetical questions
Never asked myself
Nor visualized the situation

The people who know me
Never cared to ask
Since it's important to you
I am going to do the task

I might have said something
I don't know it myself
I can't even kill an ant
How I explain myself

My feelings are honest
Care to look inside me
Don't judge me by my words
Try to understand me

Just for the time being
Consider to ignore it
Once you know me
You won't ask me.

I believe in god
The events that bound us
I believe in the feelings
That I think define us

I can handle anything
Or the worst things that pain me
But this situation is mere an illusion
Try to look beyond it.

Just ask yourself
Contemplate over your feelings
Should such events
Define our tellings.

It's a request, an apology
A sincere demand for all time of ours
Don't let it go
For mere doubts of yours

Bas Ehsaas!

Tumhari har subah bas khilti rahe
Har Shaam mehekti rahe,
Bas ye muskan bani rahe
chahe kitne hi din badalte rahe

Na hi koi Gam tumhe choo paye
Na to Koi pareshani, koi aabhas karaye
Chameli ki khushbu ki tarah
Khushi ki mehek tum mein Basi rahe

Zindagi ke iss raaste mein
Koi kaanta chubh bhi Jaye
Kabhi thokar lag bhi jaye
To bas ye yaad rakhna
pyar ka marham esa denge
Iss raaste ko foolo se saja denge

Ab ye sawal na karna ki
Esa kya Hai tujhme
Iss ehsaas ko
Iss ehsaas ko
Shabdo mein badalne ki Samajh
kahan Hai mujhme

Beautiful morning!

Let the sun to shine bright,
let the birds sing for you
Let's welcome the beautiful day ahead
a very good morning to you

You have the serenity
of an early morning sun
You have the kindness
Like the tranquility of a pond

Your glamour can beat
sun reflection through window.
The smile on your face
Is like a gateway to meadow

Your waving hair is that magic
Even wind,
Even wind dances to it's music
Earth has to rotate everyday
Due to gravity that's so tragic
Even it wants to cherish you
In this beautiful morning magic